Thursday, August 7, 2025
Jessica... Im so sorry, this cant be true.
I dont know how im supposed to move forward knowing your not there, even after we split up we were still so close, but my stupid ass had to catch a pen bit and i couldn't keep in touch. I was wanting to reach out, but i figured id do some more time before checking up on you. I was in a stupid fight with my mother and she was my only way to your number, I will be out on porel in 6-8 Months Jessica, i was supposed to get out of no where and say im back! But i bet you thought i was going to be gone forever, i just wanted it to be a surprise... I was excited to show you my grade 12 certificate amongst other things that i been working hard on. I had plans to go back to real school, doing film or photography. All this time in prison i been working on myself, trying to become a stable human being again. I had so many plans to try and get you back jess! I wrote so many letters i didnt get to send... I sent you a nice email on Aug 2 which now i know your never going to see it... I cant believe your gone jessica, why!! WHY!
You given me the whole world worth of beautiful memories that are making typing near impossible due to me shaking, tears dripping on the screen. I blame myself for this... Ill forever blame myself for not reaching out when i had the chance, actually i did reach out the second i had a cell in my hands but i was already to late. That sent email will forever haunt me baby, if it only had been sent abit sooner then maybe i would of been able to do something, i know i could have atleast made you feel abit better.
I feel like my other half is missing, it was bad enough being away for over a year without contact but now i feel almost empty and ill never get it that back... You are the love of my life Jessica and i can never have you again. Im never going to be able to stair into your eyes again, or eat pizza with you, and go traveling anywhere, listen to you rap Cardi B better then what she ever could. Life will never be the same and truly i dont feel like i have any purpose to live any longer... You were my rock jess, i have been working so hard in here just because i wanted to get out on good behavior and contact you first, excited to show you how far ive come, maybe get you back.. but now, now i dont no what im supposed to do anymore.
Life without you. Living in a world where i can never speak to you again, its meaningless to me... I will never meet another person like you again... I will never truly fall in love again! You jessica were my person, you are the love of my life!
I love you so much jessica.
Yours truly forever!
